Leave...

Leaving...
Why is everyone leaving me...
From family...
To friends...
Just leaving me one by one
A never ending cycle it seems
That no matter how hard I try..
Some leave anyways...
Why?
Why leave when you can be happy here...
Maybe some see death as being happy...
*Sigh...*
Seems like day after day...
Another slips away
And never will physically return
But just...why?
Why leave and make others sad...
Why not stay and keep them happy...

The past few months...
Boy they were joyous...
And yet tormentful...
For every great moment there was...
Always something to balance the good with terrible...
"The way of life" they say
Its easier said than to truely accept it...

Why just yesterday a friend died...
Bled to death at the hospital...
Right after I found the news that I get to see someone dear to this weekend...
Just a never-ending cycle...
Bad shall balance out the good...
Every good moment, there will be a bad one to shoot you down...

Am I sad...?
No...
Am I depressed...?
A little...?
Am I suicidal...?
No...I wont move to such measures...
For I know that will only prove i'm a coward
And prove everyone right who shot me down...
And cause deep pain to those i love dearly...

So I shall live on...
And continue the endless balance of light and dark...
I shall remain strong for those I love...
And will never give up on them...
Or myself...
For those who are reading this...
You know which ones are loved dearly by me...
Remember...I'm always here for you...